Full Steam Ahead with No Fuel

Hurricane. Tornado. Whirlwind....These things seem to describe how i feel about my life right now. Everything seems to be spinning out of control, but at the same time its not. Finally rediscovering myself, and getting back on tract. Starting to see the last of the boxes at the house, months after i wanted to be done. Oh well it will be done soon I hope. Classes started with a huge swish on the 20th and i haven't found my feet since. I love it don't get me wrong, just wish i had more sleep. lol Does not help they are building right behind my house and they start hammering an hour before my first alarm. Sucks. Oh well i suppose. Keegan will be home this coming weekend. Hard to believe its already been a month since i saw him, but i honestly needed that break. Was able to stumble away from the edge, finally. Things would be a lot worse right now if it hadn't been for my Aunts. Even fighting less with Jason...actually not fighting at all. WE had our last "argument" two days after Christmas, and well i let him have it this time. I'm glad fro whatever got through to him this time. Probably help him finally realizing i needed to find my feet again before i could walk forward. Either way I'm happier now than i have been in almost 2 and half years... Finding and getting back in touch with friends i thought i lost, or ones i shut out. That right there is a wonderful feeling. Soon i hope to have at least touched base with those that mean the world to me. It in my opinion will make life brighter, knowing i can reach out and someone will be there, even if they are hours away. Its different being so far from everyone up here. I don't regret it, just i get lonely up here by myself all the time. But the next couple weeks will be awesome i think. Jason flies in on the 3rd for two weeks. Its better than nothing and i will take what i get. Sure i still have classes but for a short time he will be home. Haven't looked forward to seeing him this much, well since the first month of his first deployment. Sad to say that but ti was some bad times back then. Things are epically better now. Its a new life and i will take it for all its worth. Never know what changes are in store for me, for us as a family. Looking forward to the 7th, even if no one really makes it. Keegans birthday party should be awesome anyway. Hard to believe he is two already. Time for his first haircut, and a new daycare. Was told he fed himself breakfast this morning, and he is talking more now. Still not walking yet but soon. In other baby news, one of my closest friends just had her little boy Bryson. he is so adorable, can't wait to meet him in person. And turns out the awesome family is having a baby too. So excited for them. Can't wait to get her a bunch of useless mommy pampering stuff =) you better believe it ma'am. and I've just realized how much i have really written. lord didn't think i still had rambling bloggin in me. lol Maybe an update in a few days when the dust settles a bit around here. Probably after this weekend. Going downtown Austin with Adam , who i have not talked to in ages til recently . So excited pretty sure the rest of the fam will be there too as its Stefs birthday. it will be a good time and a wonderful night. Good people will be there so definitely worth the drive =D. well word wall you later loves!